Friday, October 12, 2007

Worse than an addiction...

Hmm... I haven't been maintaining my blogger account... I've been investing most of my time on myspace... doing what? well, accomplishing absolutely nothing... I seriously need to re-collect myself... The other day, Mr. Flores told me that I have to start studying for Calculus... that pretty much told me that I was not fulfilling my duty as a student. On my last Political science test, I managed to barely pass... hmmm... I've been procrastinating a lot... yep, I've got senioritis bad. Oh ya, and I believe it was three days ago when totally ditched Japanese class. I haven't really been a good student. I suppose the distractions that come with I don't know... trying to maintain a "forbidden love"... has taken almost everything from me... I mean, love isn't love without sacrifices... and, "why would I ever think of sacrificing my parents love and trust for me?"... "for him", is that answer good enough... I, of course, love my parents more...duh!... but I apparently can't have both... and not freely being able to be with him, puts me in a miserable position... This is worse than an addiction...

2 comments:

taylor elaine said...

it sounds like you've got a lot on your mind. if you ever need to talk and have someone just sit and listen, i am more than willing to. don't let life get you down too much. you're an awesome, beautiful person (but i think you already knew that) and the world is wide open to you. don't be afraid to go out and take a couple of chances. things always work out in the end. it sounds cheesy(ish) but it's true. and you've got great friends to back you up. that's what we're here for! <3

Chett said...

Lol, Vianka...Don't worry, just go rock it~!